Wednesday, July 5, 2017
Ever since you got sick I've been having flashbacks of everything we used to do. We would always have laughs and I enjoyed every single one of those moments. I think your favorite thing we would do was play loteria,you LOVED that game,we would play it over and over again and you would never get tired of it. I really miss that....I miss that sweet smile of yours,your adoring laugh,sometimes in my head I can hear it. I miss waking up from naps on your couch and looking over my shoulder seeing you putting on make-up on the kitchen table, I miss your delicious chorizo con huevo tacos and you amazing chicken soup, I miss how much fun we had. I miss every single thing we did, but what i dearly miss the most is your big, loving heart. You were so kind and so sweet and you didn't care how someone looked or how they were raised or if they're mean to you, you were always so nice to everyone and you would show everyone and teach everyone how loving you can be. You especially taught me and my big sister briana a lot of things while we were growing up. You would also tell me a lot of stories about u growing, and tell me stories about the Bible, and tell me about your wedding with my wello. When i found out you had passed I was so shocked I didn't want to believe it, i kept telling my self in my head that this isn't really happening. It was too hard to accept it and it is still hard to accept it, I still don't to accept the fact that...... you won't be there to give me a hug, or kiss me on the cheek and leave your shimmer pink lipstick on my cheek, or being able to even have a conversation with you even if it's on the phone. It was way to hard for me and I'm sure many of your loved ones also felt the same way. At your funeral I kept saying "please wake up'' ''we all need you'' i just kept saying please. Please let me have one last hug. Please let me have one last game of loteria with you. Please let me say I love you in person or on the phone. Please let me hear your voice. Please God let this be a dream. Sadly it wasn't, but pretty soon mom we will se each other again and all we need to have is faith. Faith in god is what we need. Faith that we'll see you in good health. Faith that we'll be together.
Binky
